Minnie!

She grows on me. 


I blame Val.

Good Enough - Hoobastank

My best friend ends up ditching me for a girl who I rightfully think is a giant waste of his time and that he could do better. Leah responds to me differently after I asked her if she would go with me to see a movie.




Great day/night I'm having. I'm turning in. Sometimes girls just aren't worth the stupid fucking trouble you know?

Too early.

I barely just woke up and yet she starts again.

Get some damn friends Mom and learn to trust them. Don't go around thinking you're the only benevolent person in the world. 


Find something to do so I wouldn't feel guilty every single time I go out. I'm trying to prove to you that I'm not like every other kid you've heard about. I come home every night, don't matter what time it is, I'm home and in bed when you wake up the next morning. 


And if you think staying out late is crazy, wait till you hear what some of my friends do for fun. I won't go into it since it gives you another excuse to bitch. You don't even know how much my friends depend on me when they have problems or get drunk at parties. 


At parties, I'm the one who abstains. I'm the DD, if you know what that stands for. In this whacked off world, I try to stay sane and calm about it. 


I don't know why it is but the only person who doesn't do any of the buzzed or crazy shit and actually controls himself gets treated worse than those who do.

Got two pairs of slim straight jeans today at Tilly's. Their 2 for $50 deal rox my sox :D. Also picked up a new belt after getting my old one jacked. ~_~. 

Time to hem!

Sigh.

My life is like staring down a machinegun. It shoots me down non-stop.

So I was cleaning out my car the other day in preparation for the beach trip, my mom decides to come out and give me a hand. I go inside to get a dustpan and when I come back out, my mom questions me about the condoms that I've kept hidden under my seat. ~______________~. 

I try to keep those away from her as much as I can. She thinks it's actually a bad thing to use condoms. We had to go through another moral discussion/argument where I basically convince her that I'm much older and wiser now. It happens ALL THE TIME. I get tired of it.

And she had to bring up the fact that I could have had a child of four years right now while she was berating me. I'm like, "Yeah Mom, that's real damn nice of you to remind me." 

If you guys don't know, you're better off not knowing. Seriously. I DO NOT like people of any relation to me to bring that shit up unless I somehow get possessed and decide to tell. 

Biggest fucking mistake of my life.