School in two days!

Golfland tonight was good. Still not used to the TK6 stick. Rawrrmeowbarkkk. There's a TK6 tourney at Sunnyvale GL later on today if anyone is interested. I can't make it because of G-ma's birthday party. I kinda wanna go but family priorities say otherwise. I probably wouldn't join if I was able to attend (Waste of money. I suck big time anyway.), I'd just want to see some professional play. Oscar said there's gonna a couple of Korean pros there? Yeah. Apparently SC isn't the only game they dominate. They top the Japs in this game. Finally, the Japs lose at SOMETHING. Those guys are too good, they're like born to play that shit. It's programmed into their heads. I used to think the Japanese rule all 2-d/3-d fighter genres but I guess not. You can't win 'em all I suppose. Some notable Korean pros are: Knee (Bryan), Nin (Steve), Qudans (Devil Jin or DJ), Maddogjin (Hwoarang) and Tetsuo (Lei Wulong). About half of them retired (But still pretty damn lethal) and the others just recently got into TK6. Check them out if you ever get the chance or slightly interested.


Financial aid check should be here by the end of the week. A little below $1000. Still better than nothing lol. Gonna give $300 to moms and keep the rest for books and whatever else that needs buying. I'm thinking about replacing my struts or at least, finally get some rims. Then again, I do need more clothes, hoodies to be exact. Maybe some jeans too if I can afford it. Yeaps, time for some heavy-duty shopping. Wanna join me? Hit it ups if you are interested. Hah, my phone gets no calls or text the next day. I can totally see it coming D: . I don't know why I even bother asking. There's always that small inkling of hope. Sigh. I fails at life.


My work out sessions are generating good results :). I'm increasing my reps per set and probably by next week, I'll bump up an extra set, making it four total for each arm.

Fail.

G-ma's birthday this Sat. How fun. :\.


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Sigh. You *are* treating me differently. I can definitely tell. Why does it always have to be this way for every girl?

...

You know what, I'm tired of trying. I'm sick of all this crap.

I always thought being nice, kind and generous would help me, at least a little if not by much. Dad always told me to treat others fairly and with respect. To not hold grudges and plot revenge. To give everyone a chance to be human.

Well, I got news for you Dad, if you can hear me up there. Nobody fucking gives a rat's ass if you care or not. People are always giving you shit and always being judgmental. Nobody is sorry enough to even take as much as a glance at you. It's so fucking ironic that people are so damn superficial in what they want yet they complain there is not enough decency or kindness in this world.

I've always FUCKING believed being a caring and understanding person would get me somewhere. Well it hasn't and I honestly fucking think it never will.

"If today was your last day.."

Then I'd be damn glad if it was.

I want my babybackbabybackbabyback.

Work that muscle! Yeah, been lifting weights, like 20 lb dumbbells? I'm taking nice and slow though, don't wanna push it too much. AUGH MY HAMSTRING/TENDON!!!11. Yeah, don't want to be screaming that in the middle of the night -_-.

Did some cardio/stretching with the guys Saturday then headed to Chili's for their 2 for 20 deal. Their portions are fucking hella huge and I found a new love. Blackberry iced tea! Man, I have a weakness for flavored teas LOL. I really like it there but the wait is killer. I guess it's worth it :D. Hit the usual spot afterwards (Golfland). Getting a little better at Tekken but not by much. The stick is still pretty weird-feelin'. Oh wells, it's all just muscle memory. I'll get it sooner or later.

School starts in a week! I'm actually excited? Neeerrrddddd.

Fuck Twilight :D.

So Bang comes up with this new story and asks me if I wanna read. Not having much else to do, I said sure.

Roughly 15-20 minutes later, I finished with a feeling in the pit of my stomach that there is something greater within the story. There always is.

And I end up being right. He says I have to figure it out on my own.

Knowing his love for the supernatural, I can't be far off with my predictions. I just researched some stuff right now, in an attempt to attain a greater understanding of whatever the hell is going on within that story of his and I think I got it. Everything seems to add up.

Him and his cryptic shit. What else gets you better than demons and ancient biblical lore? At least it gives me something to think about in the upcoming days before school starts.

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Just another failure.

Finally applying what I learned into practical use.

1. Not giving a fuck to things I normally would.

Yep. All lessons can be compressed into one thing. How free I will finally be.

Chilling.

Wedding was cool. The food was kinda okay, I've had better. My brothers didn't get as drunk as I thought they would haha. Lucky me, I guess. Almost got hit by a crazy driver while busting a U. Damn but I was too fast for him lol. (Ahaha jk. We were inches from almost being hit. D:) Driving Sam's Altezza was pretty awesome. Wasn't too used to it though.


Home now and just chilling. Gonna pay the phone bill tomorrow and head up to school to sign some stuff. Don't know what else later on.

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God it has been awhile since I had formal dress. Feels a little stiff.

SuitesuiteSUITE!

Golfland two nights in a row. Fantastic fun :D. Getting used to the sticks for TK6. Lee Chaolan ftw! I'm also considering buying a TK6 gamer card. What should the name be? Suiteness? I think so.

Anyways, Jackie's wedding is just about 15-17 hours from now! Gonna shows up hella clean. Striped brown dress shirt with a black tie and suit jacket. I also learned how to tie my first tie! I feel so proud LOLOL. So many ways to tie them too ~_~. Half-Windsor, Full-Windsor, etc. Sounds like wrestling moves.

I got some pics up on FB if you don't mind checking them out and leaving me some feedback so I could use it for future reference. Thanks in advance :).

Fuck you. I don't care.

Your mom.

Partay in 4 dayss!

Jackie's wedding is this Sunday! Woo. In case you're wondering who that is, you don't need to know because you weren't INVITED LOLOL jk.

Hmm.. hopefully I can still fit my suit? If not then I'll just go with a dress shirt and slacks. Simple and efficient.

It is noted that I'm already the designated driver for my brothers. I kinda already saw that coming but I didn't want to admit it because, well, who wants to drive an angry drunk and a loony drunk home? Let alone in the same CAR?! Geez.. the things I do for this family.

Wooooo.

Car's fixed. Woo. I missed her :( although driving my brother's Accord wasn't bad. The suspension is definitely better. Sigh, when that financial aid comes in, I'm gonna replace my worn-out struts and maybe FINALLY buy some rims. GSR blades look sexy ;D. If I can get them painted white then that would be even nicer. Mm, I have a feeling I'm gonna spend most of my aid money on her, after I buy my books and school shit first of course. Oh wells.

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I read this somewhere and I just lol'ed.

"Girls: Guys love us! Where would they be without us gals?
Guys: Still in the Garden Of Eden, you gullible bitch."

I've been sleeping alot these past few days and I'm still tired around 12am. Weird.


Watched The Shawshank Redemption again for the hell of it. Damn good movie. One of my all time favorites on a cold night like this :).


Sometimes I wonder, is my sense of perception is as good as I think it is? Or maybe it's because I like to entertain that thought.


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If only.

ASDFGHJKL.

If you could tell me one thing that I've taken seriously, what is it and why?


Sigh. School just can't come any faster. Too much time alone gets me subjective and that is not good for my health. My mental health at least.


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Help me, help you.

Footed.

My babe's gone and broken downnn. SADFACE asldsfgl;dghlfglk. The sensor for the cooling fan got busted and the fan itself is wearing out. Me can't drive-o car-o to have fun-o with friend-o. Sigh. Hopefully it'll get fixed before Saturday.

Sam's b-day was yesterday. Rofl. Marinated short-ribs with teriyaki sauce and a shot of Hennes- whaaa? Yep yep. Crazy nigga put Hennessey in the marinade. That shiz was good though :D. Hot-Pot today for Minh's b-day. Regular fare, nothing much. The salmon was pretty awesome.

Now just drinking my wataa and eating some fried spicy broad beans. :DDDD.

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Jelly Belly Muffin.