It's been awhile hasn't it?
First things first, I GOT HIRED AT REEBOK. :D:D:D:D:D. I start on Tuesday opening for training. So nervous yet excited at the same time. I really hope I don't mess up. It's my first real job so I have to try my best. Finally, some money of my own. Now I don't have to be broke all the time, or at least until I pay all my dues back. Mayflower anyone? Or better yet, TGI Sushi? Mhmmmm :].
Secondly, I'm going to get Tommy's HDTV. Hai-def gaming. Wooooo.
And I've been frequenting Barcode a lot as of late. What else can you do in this heatwave? Their combos are tastyyy.
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Now we wait...
Interviewed at Reebok today at G-mall. I PRAY to god [even though I don't really believe in one. Make believe helps, if that makes any sense.] that I get in. There were several good signs but I can't get my hopes up. The interview itself, I think I did ok. I wasn't completely confident but instead moderately nervous :\. Oh wells. I'm never good at this kind of stuff anyway. If anything and I get hired, it would definitely help me overcome it, which is why I'm really tensed up right now [aside from the fact that I might finally be able to make money]. It all hangs on next week D:
Aside from that, nothing else to report.
Aside from that, nothing else to report.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
Unbelievable.
Lost my phone two days ago due to a financial dispute with a long-term friend (We shared lines and she lent me a phone to use). I tried to help out with whatever I could but damn, I guess not. I just fcukin' hate it when friendships end over something ridiculous like money. Perhaps it's all about you. Lag on payments? Extra charges which is like $2-$3? I'm sorry I got my own life and my own shit to deal with, but then again, it's still all about you and your life. Who cares about what goes on in mine? I don't even lag on payments and still put in the extra $5 that you asked but nope, it ain't good enough. It always has to be something else, like gas. If you needed gas money, then you could have just asked. No biggie.
I honestly tried my best to help with your situation. I meant by no means to ruin anything. Maybe these little things I should have known myself. Perhaps I was too stupid to realize it because I was too busy trying to help you out. I understood your situation but sometimes, you just gotta say what's up. I'm not a psychic. Nevertheless, everything got shoved in my face at the last possible moment.
Now, I gotta open up my own plan. Maybe it's a sign. Whatever. No more being under anyone else. I'm taking control of my own life now. Everything that I own from now on, has to be bought with my own earned money. Tired of having people pulling my strings and deciding my actions. I have to thank my homies Bang and Oscar for coming through for me. Bang referring me to a possible job at Reebok and Oscar letting me get his old phone to reactivate and use. Much appreciation and love.
Friends, it's almost as vague as love, ain't it?
I honestly tried my best to help with your situation. I meant by no means to ruin anything. Maybe these little things I should have known myself. Perhaps I was too stupid to realize it because I was too busy trying to help you out. I understood your situation but sometimes, you just gotta say what's up. I'm not a psychic. Nevertheless, everything got shoved in my face at the last possible moment.
Now, I gotta open up my own plan. Maybe it's a sign. Whatever. No more being under anyone else. I'm taking control of my own life now. Everything that I own from now on, has to be bought with my own earned money. Tired of having people pulling my strings and deciding my actions. I have to thank my homies Bang and Oscar for coming through for me. Bang referring me to a possible job at Reebok and Oscar letting me get his old phone to reactivate and use. Much appreciation and love.
Friends, it's almost as vague as love, ain't it?
Monday, September 7, 2009
Ramblings.
You know, this loneliness is starting to piss me off a little. I used to be fine and dandy and not have a care in the world about being a loner. Ever since I had a girlfriend, things changed for the worst. We're still good friends but I find myself more attached than her. I seem to suffer from severe separation anxiety. Now you don't have to tell me twice. It's SO BAD.
You know, I've moved on. The past with her is just a memory of better/bitter days. Doesn't really get to me anymore, it's all just high school memories. Now it seems like I'm so attuned to her, I can't go about my day without talking to her. She sees me as her best friend, someone who is always going to be there for her, someone who isn't going to let her down, someone who would go out of his way to do something for her. She told me I'm a friend for life, as many others like Bang has bestowed upon me before. She tells me sometimes, I get way too clingy, even for a bestie. That doesn't sound too good right? We had a huge fight when she was with her most recent ex, total douchebag. Didn't talk for months.
During that period, I learned to get over her as a ex-gf. It felt good. I didn't have to worry about stupid shit like the past. Then when we came around to talking again, this was the time I started being clingy. Is there an explanation?
Ming: Why do you think Man is so attached towards Diemmi?
Dan: It's pretty simple. She was the only one who ever loved him or returned his feelings.
When Ming told me that conversation between him and Dan, I felt so stupid as to why I never thought of it earlier. This brief exchange of dialogue would forever stay etched in my brain. I guarantee it.
Yeah, I admit Diemmi was not that great of a girlfriend. Events that later unfolded gave her further demerit. But you know, at least she loved me for who I am before she went and changed. If you ask any of my closest homies, Bang being the best example, you would know how much I gripe about girls and their superficiality and such. Diemmi, being the only lady who up to this point, has dated me, is not a complete loss. Like I mentioned earlier, at least she LOVED me for me.
It took me a good 4-5 years to find a girlfriend. Believe me, some other people started way earlier, Diemmi included. I'll say this now, I rather find a lady and try to be with her for the rest of my life than going about a dozen relationships. Yeah people say you make mistakes and learn from them. I've made so many mistakes in life that I don't need another five-six relationships to teach me something about my naivety. Trust me, except the stupid obvious dumb shit criminals do and get into, I've been there. Talks with my brother, talks with my parents. I know a lot more now.
I try not to think about these things but it's hard. For someone like me at least. It's like, I need something to get it off my mind. Maybe I'm sticking around too much. But I've learned from that. If I ever have another lady, I would know what not to do.
Wait..what? I know I can be alone by myself for a good duration but now, it's getting TOO lonely.
But nobody really cares..? Like I said, they just be slapping me across the face. Sometimes people don't realize how much their words hurt.
You know, I've moved on. The past with her is just a memory of better/bitter days. Doesn't really get to me anymore, it's all just high school memories. Now it seems like I'm so attuned to her, I can't go about my day without talking to her. She sees me as her best friend, someone who is always going to be there for her, someone who isn't going to let her down, someone who would go out of his way to do something for her. She told me I'm a friend for life, as many others like Bang has bestowed upon me before. She tells me sometimes, I get way too clingy, even for a bestie. That doesn't sound too good right? We had a huge fight when she was with her most recent ex, total douchebag. Didn't talk for months.
During that period, I learned to get over her as a ex-gf. It felt good. I didn't have to worry about stupid shit like the past. Then when we came around to talking again, this was the time I started being clingy. Is there an explanation?
Ming: Why do you think Man is so attached towards Diemmi?
Dan: It's pretty simple. She was the only one who ever loved him or returned his feelings.
When Ming told me that conversation between him and Dan, I felt so stupid as to why I never thought of it earlier. This brief exchange of dialogue would forever stay etched in my brain. I guarantee it.
Yeah, I admit Diemmi was not that great of a girlfriend. Events that later unfolded gave her further demerit. But you know, at least she loved me for who I am before she went and changed. If you ask any of my closest homies, Bang being the best example, you would know how much I gripe about girls and their superficiality and such. Diemmi, being the only lady who up to this point, has dated me, is not a complete loss. Like I mentioned earlier, at least she LOVED me for me.
It took me a good 4-5 years to find a girlfriend. Believe me, some other people started way earlier, Diemmi included. I'll say this now, I rather find a lady and try to be with her for the rest of my life than going about a dozen relationships. Yeah people say you make mistakes and learn from them. I've made so many mistakes in life that I don't need another five-six relationships to teach me something about my naivety. Trust me, except the stupid obvious dumb shit criminals do and get into, I've been there. Talks with my brother, talks with my parents. I know a lot more now.
I try not to think about these things but it's hard. For someone like me at least. It's like, I need something to get it off my mind. Maybe I'm sticking around too much. But I've learned from that. If I ever have another lady, I would know what not to do.
Wait..what? I know I can be alone by myself for a good duration but now, it's getting TOO lonely.
But nobody really cares..? Like I said, they just be slapping me across the face. Sometimes people don't realize how much their words hurt.
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Sponsor! Crisco!
Supsup homies. Not much over the past few days. School started Monday so yeah. If I haven't told you this already, I'm sorry but I'm not taking any classes this semester. FAFSA denied me and I've been too lazy to fix that shiz up. I also failed to realize that I was supposed to sign up for Fall at the same time I was signing up for Summer semester a few months ago. Yeah. My priorities have gone through the roof. I fcukin' hate it sometimes when I'm so lethargic/stupid. Eh. I've always envisioned myself not getting out of school until I'm way overdue. Bullshit 101 to family. I hate doing this to you Mom but it can't be helped. I don't want to hurt you but I already am by not taking classes this Fall. I feel as if something even worse is going to happen to me later. Like karma, you know? Fcuk. Shit's out of proportion and I let it get that way. Don't need to tell me I'm an idiot because I already know. I already know..
Anyways, just got home from hanging with Tammy earlier and talking about shit that's been bothering her. I hope I was at least of some help :\. To her, I'm pretty logical. Huh. Never saw myself that way. Some things you just don't notice till someone tells you. For once, somebody recognizes. Feels good. Most people are out of whack nowadays. Hit me up sometime to chill Tammy, if you're reading this. We just got home empty-handed from Quickly's. I think that's a sin D:
Other non-related stuff, MJ's death is officially considered a homicide. Shady stuff ain't it? Who would want to KILL the King Of Pop? Sick douches. Give him a break. Oh wait. Forget it. He's fcukin' dead. Supposedly it was his doctor who told him the day before to take sedatives and bump-ass pills so the next morning, he went and kicked the bucket. Like fell flat on his ass. Shit like that don't just happen out of nowhere. I had my suspicions. I'm sure everyone else did too. If you guys wanna check it, it's all over Yahoo and the news like CNN and whatever else like Cooper 360, 720, 1080, I don't know. But yeah, they say it's not a murder, but isn't that the same thing? I'll keep you guys posted.
If they do catch the culprit, they should burn him/her [I highly suspect it's his bitch-ass wife] at the stake. I KNOW RIGHT? SO IRONIC. OMG!!11ELEVENN11?!
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"When was the last time we burned someone at the stake? It's been too damn long." - George Carlin.
Anyways, just got home from hanging with Tammy earlier and talking about shit that's been bothering her. I hope I was at least of some help :\. To her, I'm pretty logical. Huh. Never saw myself that way. Some things you just don't notice till someone tells you. For once, somebody recognizes. Feels good. Most people are out of whack nowadays. Hit me up sometime to chill Tammy, if you're reading this. We just got home empty-handed from Quickly's. I think that's a sin D:
Other non-related stuff, MJ's death is officially considered a homicide. Shady stuff ain't it? Who would want to KILL the King Of Pop? Sick douches. Give him a break. Oh wait. Forget it. He's fcukin' dead. Supposedly it was his doctor who told him the day before to take sedatives and bump-ass pills so the next morning, he went and kicked the bucket. Like fell flat on his ass. Shit like that don't just happen out of nowhere. I had my suspicions. I'm sure everyone else did too. If you guys wanna check it, it's all over Yahoo and the news like CNN and whatever else like Cooper 360, 720, 1080, I don't know. But yeah, they say it's not a murder, but isn't that the same thing? I'll keep you guys posted.
If they do catch the culprit, they should burn him/her [I highly suspect it's his bitch-ass wife] at the stake. I KNOW RIGHT? SO IRONIC. OMG!!11ELEVENN11?!
~
"When was the last time we burned someone at the stake? It's been too damn long." - George Carlin.
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