Selfish - Asia Cruise.

Hours. I NEED THEM. Fcukin' mall outlets. The co-workers are great, love them all but it's the damn hours. I've kinda always wanted to avoid working at the mall but my friend came up big for me so I had no choice. It's a job. I feel like I've thrown away an entire semester to only work 4-8 hours a week. Bullshit. Nothing worked out the way I had planned. Mom's seriously annoyed at me for doing this. For working full-time and ditching class. It's the second-guessing that kills me. Not much I can do now but ride it out till spring, which is late January. Sigh. Along with helping pay rent, there's gas, food and the phone bill. Flat broke. How can they expect me to live on less than 10 hours a week? Oscar told me to get another job elsewhere because they're giving me half-assed schedules. Where can I go though with a month's experience? The holidays better come through for me. I need money ASAP so I can start saving.

Yeah. I'm already planning to move out. Talked it over with Oscar and he said his aunt has a place which we can rent for $1200 a month. Including his brother, we're gonna have to split rent $400 a piece if we end up taking the offer. It's not bad, the only problem is, school and work as usual. School won't allow me to do full-time and I need that in order to pay the rent. If I work 4 days a week, 6-7 hours a day, min. wage, I can still pay for rent and have money left over. School's always gonna be the same. That's a lot of stress to consider. Then there's mom and the family. Boy, next year is gonna be interesting.

On the flip side, the ass. (lol ass) manager is just a major flirt. Oh wells. She would have been nice to have. Frickin' girls. Pull your strings like a beeeeeshhhh. Anybody got scissors?