Happy New Year

Happy New Year's Eve everyone. Don't get too wasted now :].

My eyes have been hurting. I've been getting enough sleep so I don't know wtf is wrong.


And I forgot to mention, I think I ruined my jacket at my grandma's b-day when I spilled super glue on it. Now I need to go buy some remover.

Man, talk about a major bummer. IT'S MY FAVORITE JACKET TOO.

D:

Post-Xmas chills.

Hanging with the fambam was awesome. Seeing the family together again was great. However, it wasn't perfect. Some people have to ruin it.

Family pictures are one thing, but to think you're more important than everyone else is just plain arrogance. The fact that you can't wait for your turn shows how childish you are.

Other than that, it was all good. Came home at like 1ish, showered then went to bed.


Woke up this morning and currently shivering my ass off.

Happy Holidays and a Merry Xmas

Wow, it's been five days since I've last posted. Well it's the holidays and for once I'm actually busy doing stuff?

For the past few days I've been chilling at my cousin's place because my uncles from Texas flew over to celebrate not only Christmas but also my grandma's birthday, which will be on Friday. A big party, I'm sure it's gonna be fun. We haven't had family get-togethers for awhile now. I kinda miss them so I'm really looking forward to Friday.


The PSP is serving me well. Having a handheld is damn nice. Pull it out to play some Tekken 5 DR when the situation gets dire :P.



Two presents so far. I'm hoping for a few more :D.

T_T

Only you can bring me down so low

yet

bring me so much joy.

If it has to end like this, then ok

but

I just want you to know that I love you

and

I always will <3.

PSP and classics.

So I went and bought the PSP slim along with a memory stick and new kicks like I mentioned in the last blog. Needless to say, I am content about my purchases :D. The only bad thing is, I wish I had more to spend. $300 skips on by pretty fast.

Oh wells, I need to get a job. LIKE FOR SERIOUS. I can't even get callbacks. Sad shit.

Psychology final today was easy but the questions were confusing. Some of them were even worded incorrectly. Whatever. I got my grade so I'm happy. Last final tomorrow for philosophy.

Fin. aid came in this morning and I convinced my mother to let me get $300 of the $1763 to buy stuff.

Like a PSP and a new pair of shoes. Vans, Chucks, or Pumas?

Academic apathy.

Me: 1 Term paper: 0

Me: 0 Psychology: 1


It has been stated here that I'm gonna cram. Lots of it. Too bad my own common sense won't save me now. It's too late. Far too late.

-_-.

Sammy's on something today.

And the term paper is killing me.

Fcuk.

College grinds my shit sometimes.




You break so many promises now that it doesn't matter anymore.

Verbal Wars.

I'd like to go out on a limb here and say that debates are actually entertaining. It gets fun when everyone starts talking out of turn. I'm glad I went to class today.


A little something to sum up that class period.

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"Wise men speak because they have something to say. Fools, on the other hand, have to say something."
- Socrates

[I just realized I posted three times in one day.]

Geez.

Cold days and migraines. Tis what befalls us when winter arrives.

Late.

We had our debates for psych for which we argued on prop 8 on Monday and needless to say, we got owned. We had flashcards and pieces of paper while the opposing team had powerpoints. But since we got to go first, the professor gave us some leeway. I honestly didn't care about the impact it was supposed to make on people, I just wanted the grade. A solid A or B overall hopefully.

Still haven't started on my term paper yet for philosophy. I might have to cram it all like last semester. I remember ever so brightly that it wasn't fun. Not at all. Cramming is the worst. Don't lower yourself to that. It's an early warning from a victim of procrastination. The earlier you get it done, the SO MUCH better it will be. Take my word for it. Listen to your prof. for once.

Heading off to bed now, I was going to blog earlier but I forgot because I was playing Starcraft. I have to keep this updated since everything else won't be [except for Myspace of course]. I need to start monitoring my responsibilities more :\ .

Bad day.

Quite a bit of bad luck today.

Diemmi and I went to In' N Out today to eat. She had a cheeseburger but still felt hungry and wanted more. I made a bet with her for $5 that she couldn't eat an extra Double-double and we shook on it. She finished that shit in a few minutes. I guessed the five bucks kept her hungry throughout. The Double-double doesn't even cost $5. Looking at it from every point of view, I lost so bad.

but it doesn't end there, my woes worsened.

I left the car in standby mode [engine off but battery on] while I took a nap. Woke up later to find out it wouldn't start. I let it rest for a few minutes and then restarted it but to no avail. This has happened before and this was the way I've fixed it. The battery goes idle for awhile then comes back. This time it completely dies out and I had to call up one of my homies to give me a jumpstart. I'm so stupid.

I knew I was overdue for one of these.

Cha-ching.

My mom cashed in her coins at CoinStar today and guess how many pennies were counted for?

2458.

and a couple of dimes, nickels and one quarter. It was enough to pay for groceries. :].

Frosty.

My psych teacher decided to have debates as part of our final. My group is arguing against gay marriage which fcukin' sucks because in reality we're all for it. We met up today to discuss what our main points were gonna be and it pretty much consists of religion, government and kids. To curry some favor, we're gonna try to bribe the audience with candy. Whenever you have a majority on your side, you can't lose. Picket signs were also considered but we decided it's a little too extreme. We don't want people to take it the wrong way and mob us to death.

It would be a great way to get into their heads though. Get them agitated and deter them from making reasonable arguments because we honestly don't think we'll win playing legit.



The past two nights have been @$#! cold.

Chug chug.

Guess what? The railroad crossing down by Hostetter actually came into use. A small train passed on by.

Yeah, it was the most exciting thing that happened today.

And I got a haircut.


Update: Dinny and Ooey [not Quinny *correction] are staying for a few more days because my brother is too lazy to take them home. Leet. I'm starting to grow really fond of them.

Sniff.

Minh went to Vegas for Thanksgiving weekend and left his two pet hamsters in my care. One named Dinny and the other named Quinny. Both female but thank god they had different colored fur to make them more distinguishable.

It was an interesting 3 days because I haven't had pets for a long time ever since I moved away from Silver Creek. I found myself watching them move around and dig little holes in the sawdust that lined the cage they were in. When I fed them, I would watch them as their little mouths nibbled the seed held in their tiny forepaws. When hamsters eat, it's a thing of beauty. It's amazing how such small little creatures can bring big bright smiles to our faces. Needless to say, they are so cute :]. Sometimes, if Dinny or Quinny wanted some exercise, one of them would scrape and chew against the cage bar to make some sort of a rattling sound. I would take her out and let her run around on my bed or my desk. They are so adventurous and curious, constantly surveying their surroundings and accessing different paths to meet their destination.

I don't think they like me that much though [can't blame them, only had them for three days] because they would jolt and try to get away from my hand. They even tried to eat my finger [!], especially Dinny. She is the one with attitude >_>. Quinny reminds me of me.

Lazy and always hungry.

For each morning spanning the break, the little ones started off my day in a good fashion. They go home tonight when my brother gets back, which will be 10-ish. I'm gonna miss them :[. They make me feel like I'm important. I want a pet hamster now.

Heck, any kind of pet would do [within reason]. Some nights are really lonely and quiet D: . Games sometimes don't do enough.

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You know what I hate? People who you try to make conversations with don't pay much attention or show interest. Sometimes they even ignore you. What's the damn problem? I just want to be friends, or at least acquaintances. It's like "Eh, you ain't cool or funny enough. You don't fit into my clique."

Since when did this society get so superficial?

Oh wait. It's still the 21st century.

Happy Thanksgiving

Happy Thanksgiving peeps. Hope you guys stuffed yourselves full.

We didn't get no turkey this year. Bummer :\.

Fogged.

Today. Was. Really. Cold.


and my jeans got wet. D:

and my car fogged up so much I nearly freaked out on how to defog it. I'm good as a driver but a noob at everything else that has to do with a car.

...

What purpose do I serve?

:\

Blowout.

Celebrated Bang's bday yesterday. It was pretty alright. Guzzled soda like I usually do and chowed down on oysters. Damn they were good :D. A little tabasco and lemon. Heaven on a half-shell. We then went to Golfland to kick it and play some arcade. Shit was nice, I racked up six straight wins in Tekken 5 DR. I kicked everyone's ass, including my friends from school whom I ran into. Ace, very ace. I'm proud of myself.

A chill day. Dead tired at the end though and I woke up today with a fcukin' sore throat. Does that happen when you consume one too many oysters? I just hope it's that and not an allergic reaction because oysters are the sex.

P.S. Diemmi does not know what tabasco is. You fail at life.

Crash and burn.

I had a Starbucks doubleshot today. I had a full night's sleep yesterday.

I started crashing around 4. I am never drinking energy drinks again or anything that has alot of caffeine in it. Screw the vitamins and ginseng crap. I can get that in the soup I drink and the fruits and veggies that I eat. The drinks don't even work on me and I get all the aftereffects.


Black Friday is getting closer and all I have saved up is a whopping $2. And no, I refuse to work at McDonald's.

Noob.

I scarfed $15 on food today. Fat.

And for some reason, it felt weird driving today. Twice my heart jumped when I had to brake quickly. It usually never happens and the last time was in my trainee days.

Rawr.

Tommy needs to closet the wannabe player gig and stay home more. Sam needs to pay more attention to family and Minh needs to stop playing hide and seek. I'm always getting held down on shit I want to do because they are never home. Even if I had a job, nothing will change. Hours will be tight on work and having a life since Mom will always want me home early AND it's not like that hasn't happened yet.

Damn nigs, if you have so much money for whatever you're doing, go find a cheap apartment for Mom so she doesn't have to worry. I'll even pitch in with however much I have. I'm not her only son. You guys are her sons as well. You have just as much responsibility as I do to take care of her, in fact, even more now that I think about it. Do your part. Remember what you promised Dad.

R.I.P Dad. I love you mucho.


End of rant.

Xbox Live.

Feels good to play Halo again.

Gamertag: maN is Nam


Hit it up.

Fcukfcukfcuk.

I don't know what's been up with me lately. I've been acting like such an ass.

I need to find a remedy or I'm doomed.

Good times, good times. Truly.

I remember back then when I used to live around Silver Creek, my brothers and I would always walk to the Nickel City down the street. We blew our money on the arcades and played our hearts out. It was the shiz and we would stay in there for hours on end. I recall a few times that we stayed until it had to close. Yeah, them were the days. Summer. Games. Junk food.

Ah the wedded bliss.

It's been years since and it's impossible to go back because that Nickel City ran out of business and closed down. It's now replaced by a pet shop, which is lame. Don't get me wrong though, pets are awesome and I can use one [A dog or cat preferably] but damn, playing arcade games that normally cost a quarter but is instead a nickel? Shit like that you can never pass up. Besides, when you have lived around Silver Creek, you know a little entertainment goes a long way.

Luckily for me, nostalgia reaped its reward. One of my homies hit me up to go with him and his lady today to one that he found on Branham Ave. It was a trip down memory lane. Nickels never felt so good to spend.

After a few hours or so, we dropped by Quickly's [actually me] to pick up some snacks. I think I'm starting to get really addicted to it. Now more than ever, I want to transfer to SJSU just so I can stop by it every single day.


On another note: 3-day school weeks own.

Mmm.

I had an unusual craving (again) not for candy, but chicken nuggets, especially the ones from Mickey D's. Those are the best around.

But I ate pizza instead. Combination is a good alternative.








I'm starting to feel really indifferent now and I don't know why.

Brr.

I went to State today for whatever reason and then chilled at Quickly's. They have the best honey milk tea :D.



It's getting real cold but it feels good.

Today was motherfcukin' cold.

Smoked out.

The start of a four-day weekend. Uber awesome. There just aren't enough breaks in college. I mean, you can skip class and shit but in order to do that you have to be at school. Sleeping in ftw. Holidays are a damn godsend I'll tell you that much.

I went out with Tina today to catch up on stuff and guess what I did that I thought I would never do?

Blaze.

Yep. It was okay but not at all addicting or anything. It was just something I wanted to try because I had nothing else better to do. First time for everything, you can't blame me for trying to experience new things because I only got one life. Afterwards, we went to grab a bite to eat, visited her old friend and then dropped her off at her g'ma's house. Most of the time we were just driving around hoping to find something fun to do.

I think I'm starting to like her :X. It may be so sudden but like, she seems to know how to have a good time. Clubbing would definitely be sweet. I really want to go with her and get down because we both like to dance. But it's only a dream right now. Parents are overprotective tho but it's all good. I know all too well how that is like.


Prostars with Ming tomorrow. It's become a weekly thing for us. For the rest of my weekend, I have no clue what I'm doing yet.

Blah.

Today was boring.

YES WE CAN. Whatever.

Obama is president. Whee.

I was going to vote but....George Carlin's spirit kept me from doing it.

RIP George Carlin. You're one hell of a cynical bastard.

Sweeet.

Finished my motivation paper for psych today. Writer's block reminded me of how much I needed to start writing again :\.

For some reason I have an unusual craving for Reeses peanut butter cups and M&M's. Man, I've never eaten this much candy in one day. I'm gonna be wired.

Two whole days of rain and the car still ain't clean. Wtf?

Trick-or-treating?

I haven't gone for 7+ years and I'm planning to keep it that way. Besides, I gots good looking teeth, why ruin something that's so rare nowadays? I'm glad my teef are pearly white with no cavities :D.

It's been raining harder than the first few days. Oh well, as long as it keeps raining, my car gets cleaner and cleaner. Goodbye dust, although you'll just come back again. Temporary relief is better than nothing I suppose.

Btw, did you know that Barack's grandma is an illegal alien? Totally wigged me out. He's probably going to favor immigrants, I just know it.

Hometown was good today. I stuffed myself silly.




You know how it goes, you're Insawesome?

Well, I'm Extredisappointed. You know what that means?

Extremely disappointed.

Why do you gotta lie? Is he that much better than me?

Boo.

Let's try not to be emo this time because honestly, I feel good. Tired, but good.

This weather is really nice. Not only do I love sleeping on rainy days but it's also a free carwash. It's cheap and hardly any labor. The car doesn't get that clean but w/e, it's good enough. I'll just have to wait until I can't take it no more and finally drive out to an actual carwash at Shell or Chevron. I still haven't found out why it gets so dirty when everyone else's is so fresh and so clean. Huh, rich niggas. Living in their fancy suburbs and whatnot. Then again, I may just be yearning to be living in one of those again. I miss it. :[.

Healthwise...my rampant headaches have stopped. Now it's my hips and back that are starting to hurt, mainly the lower left area. What's next?



Well, tomorrow's Halloween. I'm gonna be heading out to eat with some foos at Hometown then chilling at Golfland for the night instead of staying home and greeting little freakazoids and ballerinas. My mom can take care of them.

If there really is a God.

Kill me now. Please.

The only thing I've ever poured myself into, ever really tried to make work, has gone away from me. I'll admit I do alot of things half-assed but when it comes to this, no. You can't fcuk around with this. I would rather enjoy a life with the devil than live alone, at least he'd keep me company.

Why does everything have to happen so fast? Why does all of a sudden, it's off with you and there's another to take the seat? Why so sudden? Is there a conspiracy against me that something slapped me down and gave another what I've worked so hard for? Why does everyone get it easy? Why must I try and then fail and lose it all? Why can't I succeed for once?

Why? Why? Why?

Is there anyone out there who can tell me why? I honestly need an answer. Sitting here thinking about it doesn't cut it at all.


I loved you. I loved you more than anyone ever could. More than Kayla, more than Sal, more than anyone in the entire fcuking world. I'm sorry I'm human alright? I'm sorry I don't have similarities to you. I'm sorry all that I ever could be was second-rate. I'm sorry I didn't fight hard enough so that another guy wouldn't come and sweep you off your feet. I'm sorry I'm not good looking enough. I'm sorry it took you longer than a month to like me when usually it only takes you a few days to like someone. I'm sorry all that I've tried was worth nothing in the end. I'm sorry someone showed up and ended up taking you away from me so fast. I'm sorry I couldn't hang on to you.


You always wanted it easy. None too hard. You tell me, hard work pays off in the end. Easy come, easy go right? You have to work for it, be dedicated and stay with it till the end.

I tried, I honestly did.

Now my life is in shambles. I'm so easily provoked now. I'm getting into arguments with my mom more than ever. I promised my dad I would not make her angry, I would not raise my voice against her. Anything she'd ask, she would get it.

But now, I can't. I'm a shadow of my former self. I don't know who I've become.

And no, it is not your fault. It was never your fault. I was the one who started talking to you, I was the one who started everything between us. Don't blame yourself if you ever read this. I honestly saw myself with you in the future. In my dreams, you were there, always. Now, it's a nightmare. To see you walk into another's arms so hastily and easily. Even with these tears rolling down my face, don't feel sorry. I blame my weak constitution. I can't hold anything back. I was never able to. Just like how I was never able to hold you.




Who am I kidding? You aren't here anymore. You can't be here anymore. Your heart is with someone else now. It will never come back to me.



Good job Aaron, I give you props. You picked up a nice one. You've accomplished what took me so long in such a short time. There's nothing I can do but watch you two be happy together.












After all, when have I not sacrificed myself for the joy of others?

Wow.

Fcuk this headache. For three straight days starting at 6 PM? Totally bogus.

Bleh.

Can you laugh nonstop for 10 minutes? Diemmi can. Freak.





My head has been hurting so bad this week.

So like...

I woke up this morning and my ass was so sore. It felt like I got into a fight with gravity and lost. Very interesting.

School's becoming a grind. The 1-hour breaks in between classes really help. Puzzle Bobble keeps me awake because it's so engaging and leet.

Also been trying to get a damn job but nobody is hiring. Damn stock market crash. Weak. Daddy needs a new pair of shoes homie. Maybe some new crap for the car too would be nice. Let's say, some rims perhaps? That's the only thing missing from the exterior. Interior, as in engine-wise, I'm considering an IS 300 engine. I've been riding in my brother's IS these past few days and the power is really noticeable during acceleration. It was like music to my ears. Don't worry, that's the farthest I'll go JDM on you guys. Anyways, if my Integra was equipped with the IS 300 engine along with the smooth, slick rims, it would be fckin' ace.

Things to do:
- Get job.
- Save up.
- Buy essentials.
- Show Bang that fast is in every car but some cars just do it better.
- Do it again but with his girlfriend next to him.
- Purchase IS 300 engine for more salt on the wound.


A little bit of Speed Racer exists in everyone.