Shitfuckingshitfucks.

That settles it. I have the worst luck ever. Dx.

Green Light - John Legend ft. Andre 3000.

No post for two weeks. Must be a new record D:


Anyway, work is getting a little easier. Not as nervous with customers now lol, I just need to learn more about the shoe tech then I'll be able to reel them in like fishes :D. It would help if they provided me with a handbook of sorts on shoes cuz I'm really good when it comes to retaining information. Lectures aren't enough :\. Sometimes it feels like I don't know anything at all when I'm selling, I still manage to sell but there's not much self-satisfaction you know? Yeah, I'm one of those kinds of people who do things for self-improvement and reward other than just materialistic gain. In any case, I might have to research this stuff myself. Working outside of work. I'm probably the only person dumb enough to put so much into such a small-time job.

And yeah, if you haven't already guessed, I burned through my two checks as if they were matches. Fruitful spending. Now that I'm over the excitement of earning money, I'll be a little more thrifty. I still have to buy for people because I owe but nonetheless I need to save. I'm actually helping to pay rent now. $100 from every check goes toward rent, if I ever make over $100. Hours have been cut short. BOO. Damn stagnated non-holiday months. Moneyyss for the honeyyss. LOL. Just kidding :P. I ain't no pimp. Not like Barney and his posse.

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Mixed signals eh? Two can play at this game.

You know what I've always wanted to do for the longest time?

To show every single person who has underestimated me that they're wrong about me. Throughout my life, I've sat through countless bawling and rants about this guy being a jerk, or this guy being a total douche. Enough. If you're getting hurt a second time then that's your own damn fault. Nobody commits the same mistake twice on accident. I'll help you lick your wounds but don't go telling me that I'm such a great guy and that it's a miracle I'm still single. It gives me a blatant reason to call you an idiot. Get yourself a pair of glasses and see for yourself. When you lose one sense, your other senses get stronger. You tell me what do I compensate for and how?

And yeah, I'm always known as the nice one. The guy who is relaxed, easygoing, down-to-earth with a gentle heart. The one who is always misunderstood. The one who never stands out. What's there for me to do to stand out? Flaring and doing the moonwalk? Isn't a mature heart and a caring nature good enough? Do we really have to add all these superficial things? Only jerks need such things to make up for the things they lack. Man, it's almost like saying you're ugly and that's something you gotta live with. I don't know why people hate on others based solely on their genes. How can you even do that? What in the world is wrong with you? Are you all of sudden, greater than God and all existence? Hey, if you look at God himself, he wasn't much of a looker was he? Wow. Fuck this.

Maybe this is why I still haven't found anyone yet. I rant too damn much and don't do a thing. Fuck that, I am doing something and this time, I think someone has found me.

Live It Up - John Legend.

Damn. It's been awhile hasn't it? Well work is busy as usual, which is the case for a brand new store. Come on by if you haven't yet and visit me :). We have a lot, and I mean a lot, of new shoes and apparel. Plus, on every first thursday of the month, I get 60% off for myself, family and friends. You'd do your best to remember that lol. It's quite a deal.

Anyway, I got paid like two days ago. About $220 which isn't bad. Taxes took like $60. Bitch. God I hate taxes. I also set up a bank acct. for myself at Wells Fargo yesterday. Now I be waiting on my debit card :]. Swipe swipe heh. The only thing that sucks is that I'm not working at all next week. It's so weird, I don't even know what's up with the scheduling. Some people are only getting like 10 hours opposed to their usual 30-40. I'm like the only one not coming in at all. Wtf? I need the money to keep on coming dude. I'm just barely experiencing the working/night life yet I get a whole week off three weeks into working. Something ain't right. Hopefully it's something they're trying to test out. Hopefully. (Prays). Well, at least on the bright side, I got some time to buy the crap I need like cologne, charger and headphones.

Last but not least, Mom's bday is tomorrow! Woo. I'm pretty excited because she usually never wants to celebrate it. She just lets it go. Now that Dad has passed away, we can't have that anymore. She needs to remember even when Dad is gone, she still got the four of us and we're gonna make her life the best ever because she deserves it. She is just so lovable :D.

Tired.

Phew. Work has been hectic once again. Good thing we're going through the last bit of it all. My fingers and forearms are seriously scratched up D: .

I also met my assistant manager the other day. She is pretty cool, a bit hard-driving with an attitude but overall, chill. We've barely met on the first day and she brings us both lunch and I get her number in the process. Damn. Already telling me about her ex-bf problems already and trying to delve into mine. Good thing/bad thing? Who knows. She's half-german and half-syrian, which is pretty interesting ;]. Heh, I get this weird vibe from her. Kinda sucks we're co-workers. I wish we could have met under normal circumstances. Oh wells. We'll see how things go.

Boxesboxesboxes.

Yo, sorry I haven't been blogging lately. Work has been a little hectic (Tuesday - Thursday for 9 hours straight) since we're moving to the new store. So many boxes... I have never seen so many in my life. Yeah, just hanging up apparel and carrying junk back and forth; the good stuff. Cardboard seems safe but it sure is tricky. I got a few battle scars to prove it. Lol. I could only imagine FedEx would be like this every day. Anyways, the co-workers all seem cool and really loose, even the managers. Nobody is really uptight. I haven't even started training yet for the folding and shoe tech but I think that's next week. We could possibly open up the end of next week or the week after. Eh. Depends on how things go. The district manager is coming tomorrow which I have the day off (Thank god :D.). Heard he's a real ass. Lucky break there heh.

So yeah, that's pretty much how the week was. Gonna run a few errands tomorrow and return some books and check out some more. When the store opens up, come visit! (It's right by Sports Authority. You can't miss it.) I'll most likely be there for the majority of the weeks, mornings through late afternoons. Drop on by but don't be a douchey customer on purpose :P.

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FF Dissidia is getting addicting. Squall and Tidus ftw. They should have included Ramza though :\.