THUG.

Alot can happen in a day.

It happened today.

I'm walking out and never coming back. Spent two years following a blind cat pretending she could see. See what? See if any nigga is willing to let her swallow his meat. Life goes on, but life is fuckin' hard when you try to be there for somebody who don't got your back in the streets. What happened to respect? What happened to loyalty? Do you get so caught up that everything is a haze like fuck this, I don't want to be trapped in any maze. I thought you liked challenges, that's why I gave you a test. I wanted to see if you were gonna be smart, gonna be like someone who ain't part of the crowd. I guess not because you never even tried, you took my advice and shoved it to the side. What's the point? There's no point in trying, you don't even care. All you ever think about is how you gonna make them stare. The craziness is happening, this ain't right at all. They say pride usually comes before the fall. You tell me to bleed to make you smile and I'd probably do it. You can ask him to do the same, he'll probably be like NIGGA PLEASE. Do you think it's right to do whatever you like? Getting caught in this stupid lovelife. Maybe one day you will see, that how troublesome life can be. Getting into an accident and coming back from half-dead, you be thinkin' that hard but it ain't. Try being the one to witness, to see it all unravel. In fact, try being there when it all happens. To get hurt, yeah that's pretty bad. To see someone else get hurt, now, that shit is just sad. Have you ever stopped and think, damn, they were always there. For a time when I was dying, they be holding on to me like I was a worth a million. Yeah, you probably thought about that but now it doesn't matter. You all better now, no one else counts.

You never been scared, you don't know how its like. You a spoiled little brat, that what you's always gonna be. I'm done with you now, its straight up GG. Keep yourself away from me, I don't need you anymore. In fact, needing you was never my intention. You were like an obligation I had to keep. Now that I'm free, I can do whatever I want. I don't have to care about you, not no more especially when you got pimps and gigolos who can be your sugar daddy and feed you your bottle. Maybe a pacifier too if you're that brittle.

Thug life. It's how I'm gonna be. I roll sixteen-deep, it will be with all my boys and girls. Don't worry Momma, you will be there too. There ain't nothing like kicking it with an OG, you know its true.

I'm glad you're gone, outta my life.

Because this shit has gone on too long.

There ain't nothing left. The only thing you have left to pick up is probably your thong.


~Thuglife. Forreal. Tammy, Sauron, all my homies out there who care. I love you all. Thanks for being there. If there's anyone to slap me in the face and not get arrested, it's you guys.

LET U GO

I finally got my desktop fixed. Yay. The hard drive hardly has any space though, like 10GB? Ipods nowadays hold up way more, let alone PS3's. Whatever. I hope to get another hard drive with more space and maybe replace my fan. A new processor wouldn't be bad either. This desktop's wares are really outdated. Maybe when I have a job.

Anyways, people giving me problems again. It's ok though. I'm trying to not stay so attached. I've also been hooked on TLR (The Last Remnant) for the 360. I think I might need to start playing those other games that I got. Don't want to waste all that money spent.

And I have a strange urge to head to the movies. It's been awhile.


Oh yeah, my car needs an oil change. Sam got into an accident. Got to wait till Wednesday. I hope he feels better. I'm probably gonna go visit him. I wonder what happened?


Yeah, I'm staying up late again on school nights.

~_~.

I knew this day would come.

A lot of things have been happening lately. Some of which I'm NOT fond of.




Boy, you were really thinking that day. This is why I'm always so scared that you're gonna do something stupid, get used and get fcuked over. Phong called you a slut and you even admitted feeling slutty when we kissed two years ago on your b-day. We were just friends then, no girlfriend-boyfriend status, not even friends with benefits. All of sudden, you go and slobber yourself with one of my long-time friends and don't consider THAT slutty? Sigh, what the fuck man, what the fuck. You always tell me I do things without thinking. Turn inwards and examine yourself before you say anything like that. I don't care if you read this but I just had to say it. I've been holding it for too long.



We barely even talk anymore.

"Don't worry about it."

How can I not? When it comes to you and being your best friend, I have to, whether I want to or not.

Hi.

Life is getting hard again. Wtf. I'm barely keeping up with this blog now.

RAwRr.

Random blah.


It's been getting hot lately.


My birthday was boring. Didn't do anything. Oh wells. It was expected.

20.

Yeah. I got caught dozing off in class today. Nancy called and kinda kept me up until 1ish the night before. I suppose I can let it go because we haven't talked in awhile. So yeahh, I feel really drowsy right now [not to mention shitty] since I just got up from a nap. Probably gonna go back to sleep soon.


Anyway, my birthday is tomorrow. The oh-so-close-but-not-close-enough age of 20. Damn. I feel ancient. Booo.


I have no idea what I should do. I honestly don't even care much. Parties were never really my thing. I mean, I love going to them but hosting them, I'm terrible at it. Besides, it usually slips on by as if no one even notices but me. It's a Tuesday too. Pretty bad day to have a party.


So..yeah. I'm out.

>:[

It's cold and I am sick. Don't feel like blogging.


but I did anyway because it's here for a reason.


I hate being sick. I never really get sick, but when it happens, I fcukin' hate it.


The End.

two-fiddy.

Woo. I aced my paper and my quiz today for english. I am so destined for this crap. I even tutor now.

Yay.