Where will life take me now? I live day by day and nothing really seems to happen and when I try to make things happen, I only get shot down. 

But I've lived 21 years of my life, going on 22 and I'm not gonna give up or go with a "fuck everybody" attitude because I just don't do that anymore. I was naive. You need friends in this world. As many times as I've fallen, I've been able to get back up. I don't resort to drinking or random hook-ups. Turned down? Fuck, I turn my game back up. I only live once. Might as well use all the chances I get. 


And the opportunity to help is always abound. I'll always be a helping hand but I'll never be used. There's actually a distinction in knowing when you're being helpful and when you're being used as a tool. When you help someone, you don't need to talk yourself into it, it just comes out naturally. When you're being used, you're basically convincing yourself over and over that it's for the better.


There I go again trying to be all philosophical. This is probably why I don't appear so affable. :\.

Shot down. Again.

Eh, I'm used to it.

I just wished you could have told me yourself?

:D

You're gonna have a good day.

...

People are fucking stupid.

They don't learn from their mistakes, even after they have witnessed the same exact problem that has occurred to somebody else. That's the worst kind of hypocrisy there is.

Cheat yourself out of your life.

I'm done.


"You have to trust someone to be betrayed. I never did."