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You know what, I'm tired of trying. I'm sick of all this crap.

I always thought being nice, kind and generous would help me, at least a little if not by much. Dad always told me to treat others fairly and with respect. To not hold grudges and plot revenge. To give everyone a chance to be human.

Well, I got news for you Dad, if you can hear me up there. Nobody fucking gives a rat's ass if you care or not. People are always giving you shit and always being judgmental. Nobody is sorry enough to even take as much as a glance at you. It's so fucking ironic that people are so damn superficial in what they want yet they complain there is not enough decency or kindness in this world.

I've always FUCKING believed being a caring and understanding person would get me somewhere. Well it hasn't and I honestly fucking think it never will.

"If today was your last day.."

Then I'd be damn glad if it was.