BLEH.

God damn it, I just hate it when I see a friend suffering the same way I've had and not being able to pick herself back up. I hate myself equally as much for not being able to stop her from doing what she has resorted to. I have EXPERIENCE, why can't I fucking use it?


I love to care for others. It's just how I am. There's not one day where I don't worry about someone else. (NO, Zemmi does not count. Not anymore.) I can't change it no matter how much I want to. They say when you worry about others, you take their pain and compound it with your own. They also say pain is a measure of strength. In that case, I get stronger emotionally. Yeah. I grow a bit every time I help someone. I guess it's the only real way for me to learn anything in this world.